Being in Balance, Walking in Beauty and Breaking Free (from your bad habits) AKA Love Notes to my Self

Meditation ? Nope, not for me. 

I used to be unable to fully relax, just let go and enjoy life. I did not know how that felt. Frankly my ‘normal’ state of being did not even allow me comprehend how being in balance (mental health) really feels like.  

Not until two years ago when my nervous system learnt how to regulate. 

I used to think that health equaled down regulation, knowing how to down regulate..meaning to chill/relax. I knew this but was unable to uptake the sweetness of savasana (corpse pose) at the end of each yoga class because my mind was going 100mph almost all the time, non stop. Later I realized that my nervous system was in non stop ‘threat mode’. 

I WAS STUCK IN A FREEZE MODE and I registered my environment as threat, ’unsafe’.  

With each yoga class focusing on tracking feeling internally like a huntress enabled me to connect deeper to the core of myself and start to defrost. But two years ago something magical happened. I made the switch. It took me so many years of tracking and feeling and BEING PRESENT WITH MY BODY, training on mental and physical level (for example your nervous system/nerve endings needs muscles to be protected. Note muscles, NOT SHIELDS:) Specifically in my case I built muscles along, next to my spine).  MOTHERING MYSELF into trust, power and let go. It is a non stop learning. I don’t think healing is linear. It takes daily practice. I want to share with you. What are these SHIELDS I mentioned a moment ago? A disregulated nervous system IS the body’s way of protecting itself. Because the body does not know better. The body needs training and learning new behavioral pathways. Yes, this is self mothering self parenting. So when we are ‘being bad parents to ourselves’.. trying to cope with dysfunction with addiction/self punishing behavior/simply not caring (self abandonment) we start building SHIELDS as a cover up around certain areas of the body. The simplest example I can think of is ‘recovery’ after a heartbreak. Our heart chakra area shuts down and we may collapse around the heart. Physiologically the fascia denses up around the heart. With the healing movement we exercise how to defrost, open these shields and replace disfunction with brilliant functioning and habits that build us up. Like Trust. See.. movement is meditation. It is healing medicine. 

These are some of the ways I ‘adult’ and support my nervous system and you may find helpful too… 

Forrest yoga and my movement medicine 

Music = prayer, let the vibration in and communicate with your bones and system

Music= dance (opening permission to feel good)

Self exploration (opening permission to feel good, through this practicing adulting yourself, and giving yourself the power of doing something that feels good. Through that showing your body how to register things that feel good) 

Catch possible ADDICTION to victim mentality or wound-story (this will keep you stuck, you must catch this) 

Hot/cold water therapy (similar to the Ice Man’s method)

Self defense training 

Taking note of your environment (for example simply remind yourself to look up from your computer/phone screen and notice elements in your environment specially the pieces that feel good)

Being fully present

Wanting to feel (in fact you have to feel it all) 

Find the antidote 

Reward yourself when you have a breakthrough, this creates a positive dopamine feedback 

Connecting with nature and through that my ancestral ways